My darling boy. I miss you and love you so much, I just needed to tell you. I’ve cried more for you lately than I have in quite a while. Certain songs that I know I should turn off but don’t make me see your face and cry.

The idea that you’d be 21-months today and would be so very close to the darling age of two causes me to pause. You. Two. You’d be so darling, darling.

I have so much to say but even more to ask. Thank you for dear Eilie; look after her  always. Help give Lillianne peace. She’s such a nut; she needs you.

Really, thank you. You ground me as well. I miss you so much and my heart is sad for what we can’t have. I’ve seen your face more lately. I’m okay with that because the pain is worth the memory. You’re my heart and my world, Jude. I miss you, sweetheart. I love you so much. You’re my baby boy.

I love you and your sisters forever.